i realized

that my BM sucks... big time man... i need a english-malay dictionary for every other in the sentence... this is very malufying. its not that i cant speak the english (i can... very well ok... mencarut semua boleh ok..!) its just that when it comes to writing.. its SO difficult. lagi-lagi when its as formal as terms and conditions... damn!

that if i leave the office at 5.45pm SHARP... i would reach home at about 6.30pm (on a good day... no delay in lrt and all). AND i would be able to go jogging for at least 30 mins round the block... hhhmmm...

that i have this thing about fishies... i love fishies... i found that out when i went to Aquaria last year and also on my trip to Tioman... real live fishies ok... i dont do plastic fishies ok. i love watching them... staring at them... i am so gonna go to Aquaria AGAIN one of these days if my gorgeous darling will let me bore him to death at Aquaria... (he reads this... heheh...) and i am so gonna be snorkelling everyday when we get our butts in Perhentian... yayay!! i cant wait... in the meantime, i will have to get my abs in shape (mainly my perutlah... if not the bikini will be staying in KL) or i might scare those beautiful fishies away...

any suggestions of where to stay in perhentian? tak mau hostel... thank you vely muuch!

for those who are 25 yo... and above -_-

Being Twenty-Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe you can love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

are we going through that now??

new diet regime!

i am gonna start my "detox cum no dinner cum no rice" diet
i have to lose another 4kg back to my original weight
and another 4 kg to my "dream" weight

i need to lose at least 1kg by end of this week...
and the rest by end of april....
oklah... at least 3kg by end of april

but definitely all of it by august!

i will have to start my yoga again...
jogging in the late evening... if i terlarat

i am gonna weigh myself when i get home..
so we'll see...

today i had:
for breakfast--> oats and tea
for lunch--> spagetthi (yg pedas...), 2 small squares of strawberry sponge cake and air oren(i went to a colleague's farewell...)

no dinner for me tonight!!!

dua puluh enam tahun kak...

just now i was asked by the tea lady of my age..

"dik keesha umur berapa tahun sekarang?"

"saya 26 thn tahun nie, kak"

then... i realise that i am really gonna turn 26 this year

arent you suppose to be matured by 26
arent you suppose to have a well-paying job... stable job by 26
savings of RM XXXX, at least by 26
be in a relationship of more than 1 year minimum by 26
arent you suppose to be married by 26

kan? tak betul ke...??

i am NO WHERE near those... -_-

dont feel like mature 26 yo.. more like a mature 23 yo maybe
well-paying job... nope, stable... maybe
no savings to speak... *looks down*
in a relationship... yes, more than a year... NOT YET..
married.... hah!!! nampak gaya macam lambat lagi...

macammane nie....

but all i can i say is that... i am a happy soon-to-be 26 year GIRL...

bad day

i am paranoid...

how do i NOT be paranoid...?? HOW?

please, please tell me how??

i need to know...

its making me crazy...

the star weekender

my hunny masuk papers... heheh... go here!

for miss october!

OCTOBER
Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the centre
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic
Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hur! t but recovers easily
Bad tempered
Selfish
Seldom helps unless asked
Daydreamer
Very opinionated
Does not care of what others think
Emotional
Decisive
Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature
Soft-spoken, loving and caring * Romantic
Touchy and easily jealous
Concerned
Loves outdoors
Just and fair
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence

alone...

i enjoy walking alone from the lrt station to the office in the mornings
unless im late...

i like sitting by myself doing my sudoku while waiting for my parents
unless im super tired...

i like having my tea and french toast at my favourite kopitiam alone
unless mr bf joins me...

i like reading my magazines in my room alone with my cat
unless CSI is on...

i like staying home alone doing my chores
unless its dark outside...

does it make me a loner...?

april and august

if u wanna know for your month... let me know k

AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rushy
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends

APRIL

Active and dynamic
Decisive and hateful but tends to regret
Attractive and affectionate to oneself
Strong mentality
Loves attention
Diplomatic
Consoling
Friendly and solves people's problems
Brave and fearless
Adventurous
Loving and caring
Suave and generous
Emotional
Revengeful
Aggressive
Hasty
Good memory
Moving
Motivate oneself and the others
Sickness usually of the head and chest
Easily get too jealous

sway with me..

today... at approximately 11.50 ish while sitting quietly at my desk, i felt myself sway. and i thought to myself... "pening ke?" then i felt the swaying again. i look at my water bottle just to make sure that it was me having a headache and not the building swaying... and guess what i saw? the water in the bottle was moving...

i panicked! i quickly stood up... and saw my colleagues looking at each other. one asked if anyone felt anything... immediately everyone (in the unitlah...) started talking including me. i saw another colleague at the other end of the office reaching for her bag. then, another colleague asked everyone to leave the building. then another one was almost histerical... walking very fast out of the office saying "building goyang, building goyang!" apelagi... semua paniclah... we took our belongings... and rushed out! crammed into the lift... and went down.

when we got to ground floor... everyone was as usual... like nothing happened... we stood around... (terkena pulak... t-shirt day, so everyone was wearing our red campaign t-shirt) looking very boria in our t-shirt. since no one could tell us anything, most of us went for lunch.. it was 12 ish by then.

i went to kfc... so much for my diet! oh my god... goyang again!!! its exactly 1.51pm now... its stronger than the one before. scary shit!!

anyway... sumatra had an earthquake. 5.8 on the richter scale. read here! and we felt the tremors... we are on the 34th floor. so we can imagine how we felt... manelah kot-kot the building nak runtuh ke *looking for wood touch* wallahualam...

oklah... enough drama for today... hopefully no more tremors...

maliq n d'essentials

i love this song... absolutely!! they have been around for awhile... and they sound so good!!

enjoy!

ketika, kurasakan sudah

ada ruang di hatiku yang kau sentuh

dan ketika, ku sadari sudah

tak selalu indah cinta yang ada

mungkin memang, ku yang harus mengerti

bila ku bukan yang ingin kau miliki

salahkah ku bilakau lah yang ada di hatiku

adakah ku singgah di hatimu,

mungkinkah kau rindukan ada ku

adakah ku sedikit di hatimu

bila kah ku mengganggu harimu,

mungkin kau tak inginkan adaku

akankah ku sedikit di hatimu

bila memang, ku yang harus mengerti

mengapa cintamu tak dapat ku miliki

salahkah ku bila

kau lah yang ada di hatiku

kau yang ada, di hatiku

bila cinta kita tak kan tercipta

ku hanya sekedar ingin tuk mengerti

adakah diriku, oh singgah di hatimu

dan bilakah kau tau,

kau yang ada, di hatiku

kau yang ada, di hatiku

adakah ku, di hatimu

ive got you babe

this is what i got this morning

which made me smile

which has set the mood right for the whole day!

roses are red

my pen is blue

honey i'm mad

im madly in love with you

so sweet

im falling in love with you

all over again

i love you

i need sleep

Find your own pose!

Traits and Tendencies

Excalibur couples may battle just as much as other couples (and participate in more than their fair share of public huffs), but they look so good together, it outweighs any other deficiencies they may share. It isn't that they're classically good-looking, or similarly sized (though certainly both those pairings are permissible). It's more that the aesthetic chord they strike satisfies in profound ways. Like gorgeously plated food or song filled with unusual harmonies, the wan and freckled hand-in-hand with the tragically tan, the pigeon-toed with the duck-walkers, these Excalibur couples achieve such perfection in their pairing that they remind the world that anything is possible.

Comfort Zone

Excalibur is in the Wind pose family. Other Wind poses you might enjoy include Softserve Swirl and The Ventriloquist.

Health Note

An unexpected rash or orthopedic adjustment can sometimes lead an Excalibur couple to fall out of balance. Physical adjustments may need to be made, or an entirely new pose could even be in order.

its 5.41pm... i should be on the way home now but im not

got to help mom with cooking but i think i'll only be in time to makan

im suppose to leave at 4.45pm but i didnt

so that's that

HAPPY WEEKEND ALL

tagged by zyrin! - 6 weird things about me

ive been tagged by zyrin aka muzie...

so here goes...

1. when i drive... i would usually have the windows down. but if it gets warmer, i would switch on the air-con and also leave the windows down. ONLY if its really really hot, will i put up the windows and have the air-con only. i cant really stand the cold... so i need the windows to be down and the air-con to be on at the same time. i know, i know... i should just increase the temperature but i dont like. i prefer to have both air-con and wind...

2. i like cooking and baking now. i never used to bother. now i do. why? am i getting 'older'?? oh no... watching nigella, jamie, kylie, david and the guy from surreal gourmet does not help in minimizing this weirdness... hehe... they make baking and cooking so easy. my mom also makes cooking malay food easy. im proud to say that i can cook (sedap tak sedap tu belakang cerita!!!)... simple food that is, so should my mom tetiba pegi holiday and tinggal my dad yang tak suka makan kat luar... that means i have to cook no matter how simple the food is for my dad. and as for baking, i can make chocolate chip cookies... hehe.. brownies although its a little sweet..

3. i dont like taugeh... bean sprouts... watever u call it. especially in any kind of laksa, soup, beehun, kuey tiaw... mee yg goreng2lah.. i think it SO spoils the flavour of the food. im willing to pick each and every taugeh in my food before eating it. even if it take minutes... many many minutes. i would do it. BUT if taugeh as a lauk on its own... i can makan.. hehehe..

4. i have this habit of having a specific meal at the same place for weeks or until i get muak of it. right now... its this bee hun soup at the mamak in front of my office. i can have it every working day... for now. belum rase muak lagi... plus there's nothing much to makan around there anyway.. which is not ricelah. i cant have rice for lunch coz i'll doze off in the same hour i ate. really! but today i had beehun goreng from the food court. sedap albeit a little oily but still good... mebbe new meal for the next few weeks... maybe...

5. it not-so weird... but i do love green... everything on my desk must be green... highlighter, pens, scissors, stapler (the one at home is green, the one in the office is pink. i had no choice - its free), folders, tissue box... lets even mention my room... the room is green much to sister's distaste - she wants it purple.. being the eldest gives you power to override her wishes... heheh... sian die. the bathroom is green, although is a common bathroom... heheh... my shawls, pashmina are mostly green... actually they are ALL green. i have MANY green accessories. my birthstone is peridot which is a green semi-precious (i think) stone... YAY! every year i must have green baju raya... it doesnt have to be all green as long as it has some green in it... heheh... heck even my car is green. i made my dad pick green. having said that, i dun have THAT many green tops.. wired but true... when i but those little note books for saje2 it must be green. anything green is cantik for me.. psycho kan.. and for a random thing like a favourite colour

history nyer - back in std 1, i was in 1 Hijau. being the loyal person that i am (ye ke??) i stuck to it... it become a favourite which brings me to the weird thing about me..

6. i am brand loyal... kedai loyal... colour loyal once im confortable with that thing, place or person... i'll stick to it... till... erm... ever...ive used nokia all my life until last year... terpaksalah... free phone ... ehheheh. i only cut my hair at this salon in hartamas. ive been going to here since i was 11 yo. i will blow my hair at the another place but i WILL always go there just blow.. its cheap. ive been using body shop since high school... i go to the same clinic all the time.. klinik segara in hartamas if not the one at the office. i will always park at the same place when i go to any shopping mall... this is too avoid "losing" my car. im also loyal in relationship... with frens too...

so now im tagging.. hhmmmm...
nadia - which zyrin has tagged but im tagging her again. so double tag!
sherie
cece

im done!

faster kill pussycat

1st day of CNY weekend

- had breakfast with my hunny
- lepak at centrepoint with frens
- going to tido
-later going to shop.... yayay!!!

translations of some marketing terms (got it off friendster...)

You see a handsome guy at a party.
You go up to him and say, "I'm fantastic in bed."


- That's Direct Marketing.


You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a handsome guy.
One of your friends goes up to him and
pointing at you says,"She's fantastic in bed."


- That's Advertising.


You see a handsome guy at a party.
You go up to him and get his telephone number.
The next day you call and say, "Hi, I'mfantastic in bed."


- That's Telemarketing .


You're at a party and see a handsome guy.
You get up and straighten your dress.
You walk up to him and pour him adrink.
You say, "May I," and reach up to straighten
his tiebrushing yourself slightly against his arm, and
then say,"By the way, I'm fantastic in bed."


- That's Public Relations

You're at a party and see a handsome guy.
He walks up to you and says,"I hear you're fantastic in bed."


- That's Brand Recognition.


You're at a party and see a handsomeguy.
You talk him into going home with yourfriend.



- That's a Sales Rep .


Your friend can't satisfy him so he calls you.


- That's Tech Support .


You're on your way to a party when you realize
that there could be handsome men
in all these houses you're passing.
So you climb onto the roof of one situated toward the center
and shout at the top of yourlungs, "I'm fantastic in bed!"


- That's Spam .


random photos:

valentine's

momsy's birthday
(i wore the same top for valentine... heheh)

raining in kkb

looking pitiful

bestfren's birthday in tsb

yay! its FRIDAY

yay yay yay!!

i welcome the looonnngggg weekend... (note to self: must not waste weekend with sleeping)
i will try not to bring work home (note to self: dont bother)
i am gonna spend time with my hunny (note to self:must watch 'the holiday' and retail-therapy)
i am going to have plenty of rest (note to self: forget the note above... sleep more!)
i am going to detox myself (note to self: must ATTEMPT to do detox... there goes my breakfast date with hunny)

yay yay yay!!!

dinner on valentines was really good...
had dinner at Flam's
this time i had tuna steak and he had lamb shank
and we had the "Hot Gooey Chocolate Cake"
and it was Oh So Yummy!!!
so sedap okay!!
u guys really should go there and try it
they gave chocolates and a red rose for the ladies that nite..
was really nice... ambience was great

my hunny gave me a picture of us with a poem
which was REALLY sweet of him
i love you long long time hunny
i likey like it A LOT!

my sister came back last nite
for CNY break... untung betul budak2 NS nih
i saw a bunch of them at KLCC last wednesday
outing kot... anyway... this is wat she sms-ed me when she saw the photo frame he gave me
bangun lambat budak nie... just because dok kat rumah

"sister to sister. sister reads sister boy card to sister. sister goes aiyoh so sweet"

heheh... memanglah my boy is so sweet... eheh...

my shout-out to my chinese friends

GONG XI FA CHAI

ANG POW NGA LAI

(betul ka??)

VALENTINE'S DAY

dearest hunny...

Happy Valentine's Day

i love you

i am very happy with you

and thank you sayang

for everything

yours always,

me

monday blues

im having the monday blues...
its SOOO not a good day..

its affecting my mood today
im SO not in the mood to do anything

i miss my hunny
and that is not helping with my mood

and i have loads TO DO at work
also not helping with my mood

i am so not in a good mood
that's that

not a good way to start my week

Bone of My Bone, Flesh of My Flesh

Bone of My Bone, Flesh of My Flesh

Years ago, I asked God to give me a spouse.

Not only I asked for a spouse but also

explained what kind of spouse I wanted.

I want a nice, tender, forgiving, passionate,honest,

peaceful, generous, understanding, pleasant, warm,

intelligent, funny, attentive, compassionate and truthful spouse.

I even mentioned the physical characteristics I dreamt about.

As time went by, I added the required list of my wanted spouse.

One night, in my prayer,

God talked to my heart:"I cannot give you what you want."

I asked, "Why God?"God said, "Because I am fair.”

God is the truth and all I do are true and right."

I asked, "God, I don't understand why I cannot have

whatI asked from you?"

God answered, " I will explain.”

It is not fair and right for Me to fulfill your demand because

I cannot give something that is not your ownself.

It is not fair to give someone who is full of love to you

if sometimes you are still hostile, or to give you someone generous

but sometimes you can be cruel; or

someone forgiving, however, you still hide revenge;

someone sensitive, however,you are very insensitive..."

He then said to me: "It is better for Me to give you someone

who I know could grow to have all the qualities you are searching

rather than to make you waste your time to find

someone who alreadyhave the qualities you want.

Your spouse would be bone from your bone

and flesh from your flesh

and you will see yourself in him/her andboth of you will be one.

Marriage is like a school. It is a life-long span education.

It is where you and your partner make adjustments

and aim not merely to please each other,

but to be better human beings and

to make a solid teamwork.

I do not give you a perfect partner,

because you are not perfect either.

I give you a partner with whom

you would grow together."

sayang... let's grow old together...

muah!