last day.

today is my last day at work... i had no feelings. i thot i would feel something but nope... nada... nothing. i wonder why? maybe i longing to leave the company. it's not the company... it's just that i'm not happy doing what i did. heh... and now that i officially am unemployed, i dunno what to do for the next few days. any tips peeps? actually... i have some things to do...

lets see...
1. cancel credit card
2. clean and clear and throw away old clothes... no... i'll give them to charity
3. look for other jobs (yes! I DO NOT HAVE ANOTHER JOB.... SO HELP ME IF YOU CAN!!!)
4. hangout with lish, shimi and marisa... and baby zalea
5. i wanna go to genting and go on ALL the rides! yippee!!!
6. hhmmm..... will think about new year's resolution later...

so basically... that is all. that would probably last me a week. aiyoooo! what am i gonna do????

i realized writing gives me a calming feeling... hhmmm....

i was thinking while driving to work this morning... wht is love? is love when you feel that everything you do, you'd wanna do it with your partner? or is it when every decision you make, you wanna get your partners' approval or at least listen to their say? what do you feel when you're in love? are you happy? contented? ape ye?

oklah... enough of that

this evening i managed to clean out 2 tupperware boxes of my old stuff... from KYS right up to uni. gile banyak junk. i managed to throw out 1 boxful of stuff. didnt realise i had THAT much of junklah. the rest were still junk but i couldnt throw them away. all the little notes my juniors back in school used to right to me... birthday cards... letters... phewww.... all those memories....

oklah. i'm gonna watch tv now. i'll do some productive after tv. mr bf is bz badminton-ing. which is good for him but not for me...

bye!

selfish....

that's my kitty cat with her bulu pushed-down... hehehe

ok back to the story of my life..
i have been selfish. someone passed away yesterday. my mom's fren. i had to go and teman my mom there and all i could think about while i was there was... when are we going home? selfish i know... i cant believe myself. i must...MUST change my attitude. new year.... new me... i hope.

at the same time... i was also afraid. the lady died of cancer. breast cancer. she was 41. it's scarylah... i thank GOD that my family doesnt really have cancer history... well at least not breast cancer... at least not really blood-releated relatives... but u can never know. on the way home, my mom was telling me things i shouldnt do and eat to avoid cancer. like everyone says... prevention is better than cure... so the stuff my mom told me NOT to do are as follows:-

1. do not eat hot food from styrofoam 'bekas'

2. do not take hot drinks from plastic or styrofoam cups

3. do not recycle mineral water bottles as in do not refill and drink from it again

4. dont drink water from a bottle or 'bekas' that has been left in the sun (like when u leave in the car ke...)

of course to do your monthly breast self-checkup and pap smear and mammogramme (i dunno how to spell but im sure u get my drift) and any other check up u girls know...

selfish and very mean and also very very cute penguin!

bye

world peace

just came back from chit-chatting with cousin n her boyfren. spoke about world peace and how americans specifically mr. president are out to ruin the whole world... goodness... just thinking about it scares me. but then thinking about it aint gonna help much. the media arent helping either. cousin said to read the stuff ie. on war, world peace... saudi arabia stuff online. major newspaper in OUR country are hiding the truth from us... maybe not the whole truth, but the important part of it. i think we young ones should do something to create awareness to other young ones about what is really, really happening in the world and not think about what new hp is coming out next?

i think we young ones are really materialistic... me included. who shud we blame for all these materialism? media, parents, huge corporations.... ourselves? i think our young ones shud be taught on values.... that the living are much more important than the non-living. god made everyone equal. everyone are entitled to their own earnings and if the work and honestly, life will turn out good for them. rezeki masing-masing... all these are forgotten now. parents are forever showering their kids with gifts and luxuries when the kids shud be taught the value of money n earning it themselves. be grateful with what u have. dun be greedy like mr president of USA. his greed for power is too much that it is clouding his rationality. who in the right mind would allow war to happen? who? nuclear war pulak tu?! im sad and scared to even to think what might happen if war... nuclear war were to happen... the whole world will be dead in the matter of days.... hours maybe....

lets hold hand... be united and stop this war...

funky munky

You Are Funky Panties

You're stylish, trendy, but not over the top. You know how to look good - without looking like you're trying too hard. Men think that you're cute, friendly, and approachable. And you've got a spunky, feisty side that comes out after a while!

What Kind of Panties Are You?

i am funky munky

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL

i'm gonna have a 3-day break... then 3 days of work and then.... i'm done for the year! but i still havent found another job.... shiiittt.... how leh? anyone .... can help me...?

i'm angry...

i'm angry.... i'm not sure why. i actually i do know why. i'm angry at him for not teman-ing to bangsar. because he's tired. he slept until 3pm hand lunch at 4.30pm and he's tired to teman him. what the f*&^ is that... selfish is what i say. all he thinks is him... whether everything is convenient him... nevermind other people... he's more important! bah!!!

then why i am with him u ask???? i dunno why? he's nice when he is... or whenever he wants too. i feel secure with that a**h$%#. uurrgghhhhh!!!! very very very geram!

he is sooo selfish... why?

nevermind...

bye

what goes around, comes around... karma... this much i know is true!

8.33pm...i'm back.. found this...

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

keesha

today is a good somehow... spoke to 2 frens at Ikano. had the creme brulee latte. i liked it... coming from a person who doesnt drink much coffee, it prolly doesnt mean anything but it is nice. the cup is cute.. very christmas-y (like duh!!) anyhow. amazing how talking to your buddies can make your day. i was kinda spiffed about something in the morning but after talking to them, i felt better. or... maybe... it was the coffee.... hhmmmm....

new year's is coming up and i still have no idea what i'm gonna do. i cant wait lish to come back... cant wait.... hehehe

tiredlahh.. gonna make pesto later.... hahah

hopefully it works

calos!

open house

my open is tomoro!... come one... come all... need my address... call me!

see yah!

post-raya

puasa done... raya... almost done. i know it's a wee bit late to wish every-one selamat hari raya but i dont care so...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

raya was ok... had a fight with brother in the morning... geez what a way to start raya... this is the first i'm actually giving duit raya.heheh... but only to 4 persons... mom, dad, sister and brother... cukuplah...

went to jb this yr... 3rd raya. i slept most of the way. met up with uncles, anties and cousins. wasnt too bad.... had seafood dinner at senibong. that was okay too... was suppose to go to singgah selalu with cuzin but that didnt happened. slept early! party pooper me! anyways... met my ex. hhhmm....

so... raya was ok. today i didnt go to work.... hahah... mc. my eyes hurt. cant drive.... so im bored.... out of head bored. i read up on ey since i have an interview with them tomoro. im kinda nervous but not so. at least... not yet.

i'm cluttered... my mind is cluttered... life is kinda cluttered... too many unfinished business...

on a totally different note... i'm No. 1

You are smart, a straight talker, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on a competitive basis, kind hearted, temperamental, friendly, and popular. You always want to be on the top and most likely to be independent. You are most likely to fall in love at a young age, but will marry once you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and talented in numerous areas. But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. Because of your intelligence, some might hate you. You are a pioneer, independent & original.

so... that's me...

bye

calos

..... i think i'm weird.....

hari raya

it's a long while since i last wrote. many things happened in the last... ermm.. 3 to 4 months. anyway...

what happened...

1. i broke up with boyfriend... got a new guy... then broke up (it was meant to be... and it was messy) got back with boyfriend again.. i'm nuts

2. resigned....

3. puasa...

4. made raya cookies.... all by myself mind u...

5. got myself a new handphone... i am now a proud owner of the "senyum selalu" nokia 6101 phone 'big grin'

6. realised that i have to give 'duit raya' this year... and still hoping for some...

i have to work during raya. how bad is that??!!! really.. how bad is that???!!! i really pity malays who HAS to work during raya and it's not by choice... so not happening..

i have to go now... life is UN-fair.....

weddings

just went to a classmate's wedding yesterday. i cant believe he's already married. i'm not the only one whot thinks the same way. anyway, congratulations to him and his new wife.

so, the wedding was grand... was really nice. met with high school classmates. that was nice. this month alone... i think that was about 5 to 6 weddings that i know happened but didnt go. wow... that many couples getting married... i'm rambling sorry...

i have mixed feelings about getting married. i want to get married but not now but soon enough. my ex whom i know will marry me by next year if i got back with him but i'm not gonna do that but i wanna get married by next year but.... my current guy... i guess will marry me but in 3 to 4 years time. god!!!! that's a bloody long time for a girl to wait... i'll have wrinkles by the time we (yeah... IF) get married.

but... i cant get married now. i'm not emotionally and financially stable. i cant be depending on the husband all the time,right?! or should i?? i dunno... too many petty dilemmas to think about. they are petty but it's something that has to be thought over or else... aiyohhh

ok... i have got to do my report or else...

going

calos

blogging

i think the reason why i actually have time to blog is coz i am spending less time with my darling. i use to see him every nite. it was tiring but worth it... but things change. i see him less and less nowadays and watching more and more CSI. hah!

anyhow, took EL today. mom was sick. wanted to see the specialist, so told my boss i needed to take the day off.

on a different note, my friend from uni is getting married like in a month plus time!! it's all so soon... we were expecting her wedding to be in dec but tak jadi. pity her. but i am really happy for her... and not-so-happy for myself.

didnt read the papers today.. so ppl... tell what's up with the world..

going

bye

mtv no more

so i didnt get through. i was late. by the time i got there, the table had a sign saying. CLOSED .... sad. my darling bought a pretzel for me, to make me a little happier... actually i wanted one and he offered to pay. i feel like a teenager all of a sudden. so, i was sad... then i went to OU to shop.. hahaha... retail theraphy. got meself that cropped cardigan top thingy which i have been eyeing for quite a long while...

anyways... i'm suppose to be at work... wonder where that is? anyhow, i'm home. me mom is still sick. she wanted tau foo far... looked high and low for tau foo far but couldnt find any. luck was soooo not on my side. heheh... finally called my ex. he got me tau foo far. i know i can always depend on him for these things. somehow he knows where to find... but i remember when we were together, semua cannot find. laterlah... tanya org lain lah... damn excuses.... ok enough keesha...

gotta print promuda mins now... i have a meeting at 6 and later at 8. or was it 8.30pm. i am so gonna be dead tired when i get back home...

going...

bye

donkey years

it's been a long while since i last blogged. anyways.. life goes on.. work is going down... it's so boring...not challenging... love life.. broke up with him... hooked with another pretty quickly. a fren...actually an ex thinks i have some sort of psychological problem or something... hmmm... maybe i do. what the heck? live and let live

i just turned 24. geez... i'm getting old. ppl my age are getting married. here i am... fresh out of one relationship... jumping straight into another, suicidal i think... what's done, is done. so... as i was driving along the other day... i thought, now that i'm 24, what have i achieved so far in life.

achievement no 1: i graduated.. hehehe... 2 yrs back
achievement no 2: i have meself an apt... which i'm gonna go bankrupt pating for it later
achievement no 3: hhmmm.... i'm thinking hard...
achievement no 4: thinking really really hard....

oklah... 2 achievements... aiyo! so little.. it's alright...

i guess making new friends is an achievement too... well then, i made plenty this year...

so now... what do i do next? i should get meself a better job or career... i'm gonna try out for mtv vj hunt tomoro... so cheer me on from wherever you happen to be.

my new bf says i complain a lot. i think i do too. but only to him, i think. i dont think i complain to my freinds... oh well... if i cant tell him all these things, he might as well not be my bf then... senang saje...

current issues.. not-so current actually.. haze was pretty bad. i got sick.. it first it was like tipu-sakit but then i got really sick. did my hair... highlight... spent 4 hours at the salon... and i still sick that day... the things women do!

going...

calos!

karma

wat goes around, comes around... i'm feeling it now. kinda shitty... but i guess i deserved it. padan mukalahh... sape suruh buat org macam tu, kan dah kena balik... but it's all good. what doesnt kill u, makes u a better and stronger person, right! in my case... a whole lot more patient than i already am... aiyoo... the ups and downs in my life....

anyhow, life has been great. work is ok. better than before. love life... could be better... i miss my frens... sangat sangat. i wanna see mummy marisa... aishah... finas... again... ava... farah... and the rest. havent had much sleep the whole. been coming back late very single nite except for last night. the things i do for love. god! love can be so blind. but... it's so so sweet!

other than that... life is pretty much mundane. shift work is killing me... it's soooo boring. i'll be in kiosk sect 14... so ppl... please come visit. pay your telekom bills to us. dunno waht i'm talking about... go here

so today is saturday... i'm in shah alam working. hoping to cabut at 12.30 sharp... and make my way to ou for some retail therapy. need new handbag for work... then gonna meet him... yay!!! he's so gonna get screwed by me... heheheh

have to do my SOPs before my insane boss kills me... hah!

bye..calos

ps. mr and mrs smith is good! watch it peeps!

the keys to my HEART...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

it's been too long

it's been far too long since i last wrote anything. i have been busy.. well, not that busy but i have not touch the pc for other reasons than work for quite some time. even now, i'm still doing work. work is fun. i am happy at where i am. plus there is this guy whom i find quite fascinating and he is just my cup of tea. not too sweet and not too bitter.

sis said he's fun... that sounds good. her birthday was last sunday. almost cried writing a birthday card to her. she's 16. she has grown so fast. i mean now she's doing economics and literature... last year was like kiddy stuff like geography, history and kh. goodness... how time flies. somehow i dont feel like im getting older.. hhmmm.... and then, she gave me a thank you note.. yeah.. that definitely got the tears rolling. felt really appreciated. sometimes you dont realise the things you do actually has an impact on others. good or bad...

i'm going to bed now... or i'll sleeping on my desk tomoro. are geminis and leos compatible.. need to find that out later

nite peeps!

on duty

I am so hungry! n i'm stuck at work. I am now blogging using my palmone treo. kinda cool eh? I am bored out of my mind here. anyone! please come to giant kj to visit!!! amuse me please!!! I cannot 'tahan' already!!
bagak!!! u owe something! i'm still waiting. to abul - welcome back to mainland! heheh...
going... calos!

on hiatus

i'll be away... well not really. i'll be working late. my company is finally gonna start operations on monday. got the evening shift for the first 3 days in this trial stint. hhmmm...

i have nothing to write... i have been home late... later than usual the whole week. trying to get things sorted out. it's worse when your boss choses to go off on a holiday the week before... i think i went a little crazy. gonna help setting up tomorrow so that by monday it'll be all set. so come Giant, KJ to pay your bills. telekom bills for the moment. i'll be there till 11pm. urrrgghh...

and he's not making the whole week any better. went bowling with him and his colleagues. that was ok. it was a silent competition for him. to me. he HAS to get a higher score than me... that wasnt difficult since i wasnt much of bowler anyway but sheesh... it's me... y competition????? men are SO EGOISTIC especially scorpios born specifically on Nov 6!!!

for now... shower...house chores... makan... retail theraphy... care to join me??

bz bee... part2

it's been a while since i last blogged. a lot has happened. i almost got a 'saman' for using the hp while driving but i didnt. that guy probably decided that since he couldnt get anything from me, he had better let me go. i was scared at that time... i could feel my face getting pale. and the thought of losing RM300 just for a short call to him made it all worse. yup... RM300... for the first time...2nd time - RM500 and 3rd time RM700. aiyohhh.... thank god i terlepas

went for the CLEO 50 Most Eligible Bachelor thingy at klcc. heheh... my sis and i got called up on stage to play some lame game. hahah.. but it was all good. got to see Serena C and she remembered me.. yay!!!! saw my cute eligible bachelor but i have he's not available... BOO!!! hahah.. neither am i but who cares!! goodness... the guys looked totally different from the magazine. there's this guy named sam smith or something. i thought he was totally hot... in the magazine. but in real life he wasnt as hot i thought. he was still cute but HOT.... u get what i mean. this guy Usamah.. i think... oh my... he's super hot. he definitely getting my vote. vote for him girls!! he did the capeira (i think?)...hhmmm *sigh* wished he could do that too.... i'll keep on dreaming for that day to come...

syafrie came down from penang...

i have an interview tomorrow. i am suppose to be reading about the company but noooo... i'm blogging.

bagak... if you're reading this, you owe me something...

calos!

bz bee

been very busy... will update later

Happy Happy Birthday to BAGAK!!!!

calos!