Monday, May 1
On or Off
Tuesday, April 25
gubra
i thot adlin aman rosli was good... sh amani was great. i wanna have a bf just like him... i wanna be as tiny as orked with my husband... gile romantic and charming...hhhmmm... i wished my bf was like that... but he isnt. maybe i should do something about it... like....
i bought this relationship self-help book "why men love bitches" ... up to page 30ish... so far, very interesting. its mainly for woman who feel i undervalued by their partner... mainly woman who are too nice as it says in the book...
went to the KL business club function with the PM... so many, many cute professional men... "dreamy eyes" hhmmm... ppl goes to these functions who reasons like networking and meeting the PM but for me it was also for networking but in a different sense... kih khi kih... i wished i had more guts to talk to them... aiyoo...
i have a crush on someone new.... kih kih kih...
Wednesday, April 19
blogging
gtg now... we're all here now... ciao
Monday, April 10
tomorrow is a HOLIDAY
- send car to workshop
- prepare minutes
- prepare resumes and sending it off
- read my The Edge.. (i buy them on saturday religiously and read only on Friday.... )
cheehhhh... macam banyak only... things will mountain up tomorrow...im sure of it...
i dun have much to write actually... besides my romantic life being down in dumps... well, at least i think so... he prolly does think it... uuurgghhh.... my mom says i need to rejuvenate... meaning life without a boyfriend... and all i could do is laugh it off... i know what has to be done but i cant do it... its not easy... i dont feel happy but theres always an obligation to perform my duties as a girlfren... this sucks! really sucks!
i wanna work really hard or shop till i drop and forget that i have him... maybe if runaway... i hate being alone... i hate being vulnerable... i hate not knowing that i have someone i could count on... i wanna be independent but i know im not.... not reallylah... i can be when i wanna...
bye...
Thursday, April 6
this one is for bagak
i haven twritten in a while... just got back from a dinner function organised by promuda with the Higher Education Minister. very interesting... i should get more involved in these things...hhmmm
other than that... work is boring as usual... i didnt get the job i wanted in cimb... all due to the merger... i am sad... as i was really hoping for it... oh well... i will be in the company anyway in a couple of months...
im sleepy... bye... thank god its friday!!! finally!!!
Monday, March 27
tagged by muzie...
Thursday, March 23
tagged by juju!!
Wednesday, March 15
long time
my cousin got selected to be one of the 4 to go russia!! yippee!! cool eh!! i am very proud of him!
other than that..nothing interesting happened... but i did have the worst weekend ever in this year... loads of misfortunes which i rather not say... gets me all emotional again... had enough...
gtg.. bye!
Monday, March 6
jibb's wedding
congratulations to JIBB and KAK SU... may u have a blessed marriage!
Saturday, March 4
WHO'S BED DID YOU SLEEP IN LAST NIGHT?
Friday, March 3
i-thank-god-its-friday
had lunch with girlfren and him... found out a couple of unbelievable news that cant be told here... p&c mah... sorry... anyhow... i was due for a presentation at 3.30pm with the dreaded boss and jovial lady boss...
so 3.oopm came... my dreaded boss wasnt in yet...i was SO relieved... but at 3.20 ish he came back... which brought up nervousness up up up and away... had the presentation at 3.45ish... but dreaded boss didnt come in... only jovial lady boss.. my heart did a triple somersault of happiness.. so did the presentation with much relief... at at 4.45pm, dreaded boss came in... my heart plummeted again... and the laptop chose that precise moment to hibernate aka habis batterylahh.. had to run back to the office (presentation was in one of the 'sejuk giler' conference room) for the charger...run back... quickly plug it in.. restart pc... and then dreaded boss say... "start again"... urrrghhhh....
TENSION!
so started again... this time die kurang marah... a lot less scolding. he didnt look too good so maybe taht y... but questions where there of course... and of course he asked questions i couldnt answer... it wasnt too bad this time... finished quickly, so i was done by 5.30pm.... yippie...earlier than last week..walked back home... yes i did!!
at then didie called... went to hartamas shopping center for makan. ate at Sao Nam...vietnamese restaurant... ambience was great... their interior design was very chic... at least i thot it was... took photos... uploaded later2... had fun with... chit-chatted... havent seen her in a looooong time...
im done... tired...got a new laptop... so im gonna 'godeh' my new laptop now..
bye
Tuesday, February 28
PGL on Sunday
couldnt take photos inside... so ambik gambar ngan poster je...
Above the stage, they put up a translation-board kind of thing. I can safely say at least one quarter of time they were singing; I was reading the English translation to the songs. But I guess, because it’s there, you have the tendency to read it. I tried hard to concentrate and understand on the lyrics of the song... Which made me think...? Does Hang Tuah really know what singing about? For him to know and for us to find out. So, anyway… I realized that my brains works much faster understanding the translation rather than understanding the original version. Yes, my bahasa is not-so great. But I can speak malay fluently. Tolonglah, saya orang melayu tulen. Actually, not really. My dad’s dad is a Pakistani who married a Chinese woman. I guess I can say my dad is chidian but muslim. But no.. my dad is malay. How he became malay, you ask? Don’t know. My mom’s mom was a Chinese convert and my grandfather was a malay. So then, there’s me. I don’t really look malay neither do I like any other do I like any other races. (eee...so perasan kan...!!) So what am i? Malaysian lahhhh… back to PGL, the musical was moving as in emotional moving. At least, it was for me. Which either means that they were really good or I am just too emotional. You pick.
Thursday, February 23
not-too-bad
Tagged yet again...
10 FIRSTS
First best friend: juju... from std 2 onwards.... :)
First item you stole: i dun remember but it'll prolly sumthing my deskmate
First pet: my cat 'spangles' which i found in hartamas back when it was uncivilised in 2000
First piercing: my ears when i was 5
First school: villamaria
First house location: the same hse im in now... d'sara heights
First crush: mahfuz
First kiss: adelahhh..cannot tell... shy...
First car: red kancil
9 LASTS
last time you smoked: last yr... birthday
last food you ate: high 5 vanilla bread
last movie you watched on dvd at home: not my hse... i think it was 'the truth about love' - jennifer love hewitt
last movie you watched at the cinema: memoirs of a geisha
last text message: your secret admirer... call if you wanna know who this is
last music video u saw: sway by PCD on shimi's ipod
last song you listened to: tiada tandingan by sheila majid... tgh dgr rite know
last words you said: lambat lagi...
8 HAVE-YOU-EVERS
dated a best friend: nope
been arrested: nope
ever been on TV: i dun think so
eaten sushi: i l-o-v-e sushi
cheated on your BF/GF: yeah... bad keesha, bad keesha
been on a blind date: kinda
been out of the country: yes!
been in love: always... before... now... not anymore
7 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. black skirt
2. white with red and black shirt
3. my 10-yr old guess watch
4. my rings
5. earrings
6. using my ipod
7. undies
6 THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY
1. made cold calls
2. checked my emails
3. rehearsed for my presentation tomoro
4. called Mr. Bf
5. picked up mom
6. checked jobstreet
5 FAVORITE THINGS
1. my girls...
2. my hp
3. my ipod
4. haagen dazs chocolate ice cream
5. going to flea markets
4 PEOPLE YOU TRUST THE MOST
1. finas
2. lish
3. kamarul
4. mom
3 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. get married
2. get filthy rich
3. bertaubat... heheh
2 CHOICES
vanilla or chocolate: chocolate haagen dazs ice-cream and high 5 vanilla bread
rock or rap: rap
1 PERSON YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW?
sep
And these people are, therefore, tagged:
1. jam
2. edna
3. ava
4. ibdil ... if he has time..
bye bye peeps
Tuesday, February 21
tagged...
A. 8 Different Points of a Perfect Lover
1. one that can understand my 'perangai'
- not many ppl get me... so the 'ONE' that does would be a keeper
2. one that is good-looking or at least 'sedap mata memandang'
- i'll be one of the many to admit this, i want to have a good looking guy as my lover... i wanna have cute kids
3. one that is a hopeless romantic just like me
- i am a hopeless romantic... i am! walks in the park... rose petals on the bed... breakfast in bed... moonlight walks by the beach... the works...
4. one that is understanding
- this one normal lah kan..
5. one that is humorous and serious at the same time
- i need laughter in my life man! cant live without it... i'll surely die. and also be serious about things that matter to me...and him of course
6. one that mixes well with others especially my friends and family
- i have a weird family... we show our love by bullying them... so he'd better be able to adapt
7. one that appreciates me
- enuff said
8. one that is good in the room on the you-know-where
- heheheh...
B. Sex of Target
definitely a male.... no more and definitely no less
C. Tag 8 Victims
1. jam
2. ava
3.edna
dah lah... i dun have many blogging frens...
cioa!
Sunday, February 19
i am not happening
Friday, February 17
....<_>........
bye bye
Sunday, February 12
astronaut!!
i havent watched TV the whole week!! i missed CSI, Las Vegas, Medical Investigations, Charmed, North Shore.... what else... my morning dose of Oprah... urrghhh... all coz of work. i forgot how it feels to work 9-5... actually i have worked 9-5 and for even longer hours, only i dun remember hating the work on the very first day! heh!
okay... astronaut! my cousin is one of the last 8!!! yay for him!!! so cool kan!!! faiz kamaludin... support him! not that this is a sms thingy pun... but just so u know! read here!
done now... gonna continue my never-ending search for the "ultimate" job...
bye
Thursday, February 9
3 days...
please leave a comment if u want my resume.... i would be more than happy to pass it to you...
please....
bye...
Sunday, February 5
blogthings and gym
| Your Five Factor Personality Profile |
Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue. |
Thursday, February 2
some of things i've done...
(x) smoked a cigarette (dulu dululahhh...)
(x) crashed a friend's car (my ex... i didnt crash it per say.. dent it maybe...)
( ) stolen a car
(x) been dumped (like who hasnt...oh ade ye... sorry!)
( ) shoplifted
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) skipped school
(x) seen someone die (my toks... :( )
(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire (only arsonist does that!!)
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been skiing/snow boarding
( ) met someone in person from the internet
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x) taken painkillers (whaddya think... pms is no fun!!)
(x) loved someone or miss someone (yes.. yes..yes..)
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumpin
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledging
( ) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake (eewwhhhhhhh.... geli!!)
( ) slept beneath the stars (starlight cinema...accidently slept...)
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed (thank god!)
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat (and kicked after that... stupid deer!)
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car
(x) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (almost... )
(x) had a deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart (all the f*^@ing time!... only about who i really want..)
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country (does thailand count?)
(x) swam in the ocean
( ) felt like dying try thisperiod cramps,diarrhea, flu & nausea all at the same time
(x) cried yourself to sleep (just did...)
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons
(x) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls when I was younger
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating (rollerblading..)
( ) had a wish come true and then wished i never made that wish in the first place!
(x) worn pearls (i love pearls....)
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your tongue stuck to something (its ice ok...)
( ) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believed in ghosts
( ) had more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
( ) gone doorbell ditching
( ) played chicken
(x) been pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
( ) been told you're hot by a complete stranger and then he asked for my mums number!
( ) broken a bone dislocated ankle
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test (now... tell me who hasnt??...)
( ) have/had a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someones name
(x) French braided someones hair
( ) been threatened to be kicked out of your house
( ) been kicked out of your house
went to watch Mocca yesterday. they were good... the crowd was good. met old frens... lepak with my girls finas and ava. had loads of great and insightful conversations.. heheh... go buy Mocca album later k... it's coming out in May 2006!
Monday, January 30
always a TEEN-ager .... at heart
| You Are 17 Years Old |
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Sunday, January 29
CNY 2006
Friday, January 27
i. am. sick
i've started doing sudoku, courtesy of her. heheh... it really makes u think. i ahvent been thinking much for the past 3 weeks... ;)
to those KL-ites who are going anywhere on Monday (1st Feb) go to Suria KLCC k! and watch them. a fren said they sound like the cardigans. macam best je. i'll be there...
i'm going... gonna find more tricks for my sudoku game!
ciao
Monday, January 23
blood test
had i girl-lunch thingy yesterday... my close uni frens. i cooked lunch and dessert (yg didnt turn out too well...) chit-chatted... chit-chatted... it was much much fun... i'm gonna do it again. it's nice to have my girls around. we hardly ever see each other. so, i think it's a good way to start...
finas bought ice cream for us... haagen dazs no less... i'm contently having Haagen Dazs chocolate ice cream now while typing knowing full fact that i have put on weight 1 1/2 kgs (i found out at the medical check up.... :( ) how sad is that??? takpe, i'm gonna lose it starting tomoro. yes i will... yes i will... i really need to drill it into my brains!
gonna go... ciao
Friday, January 20
boo hoo hoo
my fatty bf was nice to me today and also yesterday. i think it was coz of the talk we had last week... i think this time it got through his thick skull... well, i'm not hoping for the moon but i am hoping that this will lasts. or maybe its becoz i havent seen him in awhile (like 2 days... je... i know) and all coz i went clubbing... heheh.. maybe. i shouldnt doubt him. maybe he misses me.. kih kih kih.. yeah right!
Thursday, January 19
life... oh life...
2. cooking ...i have been cooking dinner since monday. so that makes it 3 days in a row. yay for me!!! it wasnt difficult food like curry or asam laksa or ikan bilis sambal tumis... no i cant do that YET... baby steps for me... ikan goreng... sayur goreng... and to think i was deathly afraid of 'spitting' oil from the pan. it's not too bad once u get used to the pain '*evil smile* i have yellow stains on my fingers now... proof that i have been cooking or at least i have been cutting the kunyit *wink* only... heheheh... jamie 'cute, gorgeous' oliver you... watch out for me!!
3. interview ... miraculously i have had 1 interview yesterday and another 1 later this evening. and for positions i dont particular want or like. but hell, i cant be picky now, can i??? i AM unemployed... lagi nak mengada! dapat interview pun dah cukup bagus... anyway, i am still going for the interview... wish me luck peeps
i hate when things cant be ok on both sides. i always believe you cant have everything and life is all about ups and downs. this week i had a row with my brother and i still dont wanna really speak to him unless i absolutely have to do and it is also this week that i have 2 interviews. jeez... why cant life be okor at least balanced... with family, work, relationships and friends... oh and also money. but then again, as said earlier, life is never perfect and u cant always have what u want. it's shitty though, when u notice these things... yek... i have to shower and start cleaning my room... i have an hour before i become driver to my sister...
bye
Friday, January 13
friday the 13th!
i shouldnt even be doing it... but i really want too. i think it's interesting. bf says dont. many ppl say you shouldnt believe it. but for me... it's subtle hints on how my year is gonna be. whether it really happens or not... i dont care. i can safely say that i'm kinda superstitious... kindalahh. i like to believe all this horoscope crap. you know whether you and your partner are compatible or not. the birthstones - whats good for this year... that kind of stuff.
on a different note, chatted with my pet-bro who's in the states. havent chatted with him in ages. it was cool. anyways, talking to him made me realise my feelings towards my dearie darling. it made me confused. later that nite, spoke to another fren about these feelings. to which he made a comment... '' men are idiots'' hhmmm... that's coming from a guy. tak ke malukan your own kaum. anyways... i think men ARE idiots. if your men are not idiots, keep them and hide them. nanti org curi, susah!! so yeah... i think having a relationship is easy... it's maintaining it that's difficult. it really test you. especially if the other party is unsure of their feelings for their partner and where they stand in the relationship...
oklah... i dont like writing about this.. it makes me sad.... and that sucks...
bye
::edit::
Wednesday, January 11
penang
so Day 1: 06.01.06- friday (cool date huh?!!...)
7.15am: left for Penang
9-ish: arrived in Ipoh for breakfast. dad met up with his ppl, so my bro and i tagged along. (like we better things to do...)
1.30pm: arrived in Penang
on the way to penang
jelapang toll and for the rest of the day, i slept and read my book. took a walk to 7-11 nearby and got stuck coz it started raining. yeah...
Day 2: 07.01.06 - saturday
11-ish: woke up... heheh..
went to pick up mom and sis at the airport which was like 10 mins drive away from home. gile dekat! in kl... its like 45 mins drive... had lunch... nasi kandar. so much for dieting the past week. then, we headed to gurney plaza... there's nothing much there. it's like another mid-valley only smaller but i insisted on going anyway... i would be bored half to death if we were to balik rumah straight from lunch. i needed to walk off my lunch anyway. went home... dinner was at this seafood place. we got lost on the way there... sheesh... it was famous for prawn mee. it's in teluk kumbar. i dont really fancy or even like prawn mee before but at this place... the prawn mee was so SEDAP! ttotally changed my mind abot prawn mee! the prawns were huge. they were not udang galah so that means the prawns were HUGE! after dinner, we walked on the jetty. it was so dark... that i didnt even realise we were by the beach. jetty was nice.... cool air... very calming... wanted to stay there forever kinda feeling
view from the house... tht's part of the airport - the runaway
at the jetty - it's really dark... sorry!
ikan bilis.. guppies... i cant really see actually
Day 3: 08.01.06 - sunday
we went to bukit bendera. it was really really high... tall wahtever... the ride was freaky. the cable car had 1-satu-one cable pulling it up and down. goodness, what happens if the cable breaks????.. we'll crash down man and look like pancakes if we were to survivelah!!! scary... on the way up, we had to sorta cram into the cable car. halfway, there was this pakcik who started feeling woozy. thank god he didnt vomit! that would be it man! once up... it was cool... sejuk... we had a great view... penang bridge and all. had lunch at the hotel. yup... hotel or so they say. it's actually a house with maybe.... 7-8 rooms. service was good but the food was terrible. tak sedap langsung and for hotel-price... it was ridiculous! i guess we paid for the view and ambience which was great.
the view from half way from the top
the view from top... i think
after bukit bendera... went to gurney plaza (again...) to get mom's birthday cake. her birthday was the next day. so... went to manila's place got chocolate banana cake... i honestly think secret recipe's choclate banana is way better!!! while mom, dad and bro went to buy groceries. my sister and i rushed to birthday cards for me mam. and we couldnt find any memory lane (maybe we didnt look hard enough... but then again we didnt have much time) or any stationary shop. so we went to parkson grand and got her card there. we had to make do with whatever they had which wasnt much at all.
went home... dinner and sang happy birthday at the stroke of midnight! then tido. didnt even cut the cake. we were all too tired!
Day 4: 09.10.06 - monday
lepak day coz dad was working. met my senior who happens to be my x-colleague as well. chatted and gossiped. it was fun. got home. i wanted goreng pisang.. so all us except for dad went to walk to the gerai for goreng pisang... and then we had leng chee kang... asam laksa... mee goreng... so that was suppose to dinner for us... yeah right... kononlah... we did have dinner... yet again... and birthday cake. someone brought us secret recipe's oreo cheesecake. so we had that as well. fat fat fat fat...
Day 5: 10.01.06 - tuesday (Raya Haji)
woke up and went over to my dad's fren's place for lunch. parents chit-chatted. us kids amused ourselves. i found out that my sister is a little 'sengau' which means she's kinda nasal when she speaks or at least with certain words. she says i use, i nyuse... heheh... then my sister and i balk kl. bro going to langkawi today... parents, they have functions.
today is clearing the house day. i managed to lipat all dry clothes. cleaned the kitchen. did the laundry... paid for my house and YTN. heheh.. mission accomplished for the day! yay for me!!
tired... bye bye
Thursday, January 5
interview
bye
::edit::
i'm back. interview was ok. i hope i get through! i still have the sniffles. boo hoo hoo!

the stuff i got for my flu and scratchy throat
bye bye!
Sunday, January 1
happy new year!!!
fireworks at ikano power centre
mom and me a dome's for dinner
khaira and me
calos...
Thursday, December 29
last day.
lets see...
1. cancel credit card
2. clean and clear and throw away old clothes... no... i'll give them to charity
3. look for other jobs (yes! I DO NOT HAVE ANOTHER JOB.... SO HELP ME IF YOU CAN!!!)
4. hangout with lish, shimi and marisa... and baby zalea
5. i wanna go to genting and go on ALL the rides! yippee!!!
6. hhmmm..... will think about new year's resolution later...
so basically... that is all. that would probably last me a week. aiyoooo! what am i gonna do????
i realized writing gives me a calming feeling... hhmmm....
i was thinking while driving to work this morning... wht is love? is love when you feel that everything you do, you'd wanna do it with your partner? or is it when every decision you make, you wanna get your partners' approval or at least listen to their say? what do you feel when you're in love? are you happy? contented? ape ye?
oklah... enough of that
this evening i managed to clean out 2 tupperware boxes of my old stuff... from KYS right up to uni. gile banyak junk. i managed to throw out 1 boxful of stuff. didnt realise i had THAT much of junklah. the rest were still junk but i couldnt throw them away. all the little notes my juniors back in school used to right to me... birthday cards... letters... phewww.... all those memories....
oklah. i'm gonna watch tv now. i'll do some productive after tv. mr bf is bz badminton-ing. which is good for him but not for me...
bye!
Tuesday, December 27
selfish....

that's my kitty cat with her bulu pushed-down... hehehe
i have been selfish. someone passed away yesterday. my mom's fren. i had to go and teman my mom there and all i could think about while i was there was... when are we going home? selfish i know... i cant believe myself. i must...MUST change my attitude. new year.... new me... i hope.
at the same time... i was also afraid. the lady died of cancer. breast cancer. she was 41. it's scarylah... i thank GOD that my family doesnt really have cancer history... well at least not breast cancer... at least not really blood-releated relatives... but u can never know. on the way home, my mom was telling me things i shouldnt do and eat to avoid cancer. like everyone says... prevention is better than cure... so the stuff my mom told me NOT to do are as follows:-
1. do not eat hot food from styrofoam 'bekas'
Sunday, December 25
world peace
i think we young ones are really materialistic... me included. who shud we blame for all these materialism? media, parents, huge corporations.... ourselves? i think our young ones shud be taught on values.... that the living are much more important than the non-living. god made everyone equal. everyone are entitled to their own earnings and if the work and honestly, life will turn out good for them. rezeki masing-masing... all these are forgotten now. parents are forever showering their kids with gifts and luxuries when the kids shud be taught the value of money n earning it themselves. be grateful with what u have. dun be greedy like mr president of USA. his greed for power is too much that it is clouding his rationality. who in the right mind would allow war to happen? who? nuclear war pulak tu?! im sad and scared to even to think what might happen if war... nuclear war were to happen... the whole world will be dead in the matter of days.... hours maybe....
lets hold hand... be united and stop this war...
Friday, December 23
funky munky
| You Are Funky Panties |
You're stylish, trendy, but not over the top. You know how to look good - without looking like you're trying too hard. Men think that you're cute, friendly, and approachable. And you've got a spunky, feisty side that comes out after a while! |
i am funky munky
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL
i'm gonna have a 3-day break... then 3 days of work and then.... i'm done for the year! but i still havent found another job.... shiiittt.... how leh? anyone .... can help me...?
Sunday, December 18
i'm angry...
then why i am with him u ask???? i dunno why? he's nice when he is... or whenever he wants too. i feel secure with that a**h$%#. uurrgghhhhh!!!! very very very geram!
he is sooo selfish... why?
nevermind...
bye
what goes around, comes around... karma... this much i know is true!
8.33pm...i'm back.. found this...
| Your Personality Is |
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
Tuesday, November 29
keesha
new year's is coming up and i still have no idea what i'm gonna do. i cant wait lish to come back... cant wait.... hehehe
tiredlahh.. gonna make pesto later.... hahah
hopefully it works
calos!
Saturday, November 19
Wednesday, November 9
post-raya
Thursday, October 27
hari raya
what happened...
1. i broke up with boyfriend... got a new guy... then broke up (it was meant to be... and it was messy) got back with boyfriend again.. i'm nuts
2. resigned....
3. puasa...
4. made raya cookies.... all by myself mind u...
5. got myself a new handphone... i am now a proud owner of the "senyum selalu" nokia 6101 phone 'big grin'
6. realised that i have to give 'duit raya' this year... and still hoping for some...
i have to work during raya. how bad is that??!!! really.. how bad is that???!!! i really pity malays who HAS to work during raya and it's not by choice... so not happening..
i have to go now... life is UN-fair.....
Monday, August 22
weddings
so, the wedding was grand... was really nice. met with high school classmates. that was nice. this month alone... i think that was about 5 to 6 weddings that i know happened but didnt go. wow... that many couples getting married... i'm rambling sorry...
i have mixed feelings about getting married. i want to get married but not now but soon enough. my ex whom i know will marry me by next year if i got back with him but i'm not gonna do that but i wanna get married by next year but.... my current guy... i guess will marry me but in 3 to 4 years time. god!!!! that's a bloody long time for a girl to wait... i'll have wrinkles by the time we (yeah... IF) get married.
but... i cant get married now. i'm not emotionally and financially stable. i cant be depending on the husband all the time,right?! or should i?? i dunno... too many petty dilemmas to think about. they are petty but it's something that has to be thought over or else... aiyohhh
ok... i have got to do my report or else...
going
calos
Tuesday, August 16
blogging
anyhow, took EL today. mom was sick. wanted to see the specialist, so told my boss i needed to take the day off.
on a different note, my friend from uni is getting married like in a month plus time!! it's all so soon... we were expecting her wedding to be in dec but tak jadi. pity her. but i am really happy for her... and not-so-happy for myself.
didnt read the papers today.. so ppl... tell what's up with the world..
going
bye
Monday, August 15
mtv no more
anyways... i'm suppose to be at work... wonder where that is? anyhow, i'm home. me mom is still sick. she wanted tau foo far... looked high and low for tau foo far but couldnt find any. luck was soooo not on my side. heheh... finally called my ex. he got me tau foo far. i know i can always depend on him for these things. somehow he knows where to find... but i remember when we were together, semua cannot find. laterlah... tanya org lain lah... damn excuses.... ok enough keesha...
gotta print promuda mins now... i have a meeting at 6 and later at 8. or was it 8.30pm. i am so gonna be dead tired when i get back home...
going...
bye
Saturday, August 13
donkey years
i just turned 24. geez... i'm getting old. ppl my age are getting married. here i am... fresh out of one relationship... jumping straight into another, suicidal i think... what's done, is done. so... as i was driving along the other day... i thought, now that i'm 24, what have i achieved so far in life.
achievement no 1: i graduated.. hehehe... 2 yrs back
achievement no 2: i have meself an apt... which i'm gonna go bankrupt pating for it later
achievement no 3: hhmmm.... i'm thinking hard...
achievement no 4: thinking really really hard....
oklah... 2 achievements... aiyo! so little.. it's alright...
i guess making new friends is an achievement too... well then, i made plenty this year...
so now... what do i do next? i should get meself a better job or career... i'm gonna try out for mtv vj hunt tomoro... so cheer me on from wherever you happen to be.
my new bf says i complain a lot. i think i do too. but only to him, i think. i dont think i complain to my freinds... oh well... if i cant tell him all these things, he might as well not be my bf then... senang saje...
current issues.. not-so current actually.. haze was pretty bad. i got sick.. it first it was like tipu-sakit but then i got really sick. did my hair... highlight... spent 4 hours at the salon... and i still sick that day... the things women do!
going...
calos!
Saturday, June 11
karma
anyhow, life has been great. work is ok. better than before. love life... could be better... i miss my frens... sangat sangat. i wanna see mummy marisa... aishah... finas... again... ava... farah... and the rest. havent had much sleep the whole. been coming back late very single nite except for last night. the things i do for love. god! love can be so blind. but... it's so so sweet!
other than that... life is pretty much mundane. shift work is killing me... it's soooo boring. i'll be in kiosk sect 14... so ppl... please come visit. pay your telekom bills to us. dunno waht i'm talking about... go here
so today is saturday... i'm in shah alam working. hoping to cabut at 12.30 sharp... and make my way to ou for some retail therapy. need new handbag for work... then gonna meet him... yay!!! he's so gonna get screwed by me... heheheh
have to do my SOPs before my insane boss kills me... hah!
bye..calos
ps. mr and mrs smith is good! watch it peeps!
Tuesday, May 24
the keys to my HEART...
The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
Thursday, May 19
it's been too long
sis said he's fun... that sounds good. her birthday was last sunday. almost cried writing a birthday card to her. she's 16. she has grown so fast. i mean now she's doing economics and literature... last year was like kiddy stuff like geography, history and kh. goodness... how time flies. somehow i dont feel like im getting older.. hhmmm.... and then, she gave me a thank you note.. yeah.. that definitely got the tears rolling. felt really appreciated. sometimes you dont realise the things you do actually has an impact on others. good or bad...
i'm going to bed now... or i'll sleeping on my desk tomoro. are geminis and leos compatible.. need to find that out later
nite peeps!
Wednesday, April 20
on duty
bagak!!! u owe something! i'm still waiting. to abul - welcome back to mainland! heheh...
going... calos!
Saturday, April 16
on hiatus
i have nothing to write... i have been home late... later than usual the whole week. trying to get things sorted out. it's worse when your boss choses to go off on a holiday the week before... i think i went a little crazy. gonna help setting up tomorrow so that by monday it'll be all set. so come Giant, KJ to pay your bills. telekom bills for the moment. i'll be there till 11pm. urrrgghh...
and he's not making the whole week any better. went bowling with him and his colleagues. that was ok. it was a silent competition for him. to me. he HAS to get a higher score than me... that wasnt difficult since i wasnt much of bowler anyway but sheesh... it's me... y competition????? men are SO EGOISTIC especially scorpios born specifically on Nov 6!!!
for now... shower...house chores... makan... retail theraphy... care to join me??
Monday, April 11
bz bee... part2
went for the CLEO 50 Most Eligible Bachelor thingy at klcc. heheh... my sis and i got called up on stage to play some lame game. hahah.. but it was all good. got to see Serena C and she remembered me.. yay!!!! saw my cute eligible bachelor but i have he's not available... BOO!!! hahah.. neither am i but who cares!! goodness... the guys looked totally different from the magazine. there's this guy named sam smith or something. i thought he was totally hot... in the magazine. but in real life he wasnt as hot i thought. he was still cute but HOT.... u get what i mean. this guy Usamah.. i think... oh my... he's super hot. he definitely getting my vote. vote for him girls!! he did the capeira (i think?)...hhmmm *sigh* wished he could do that too.... i'll keep on dreaming for that day to come...
syafrie came down from penang...
i have an interview tomorrow. i am suppose to be reading about the company but noooo... i'm blogging.
bagak... if you're reading this, you owe me something...
calos!













